Showing posts from September, 2013

The Battlefield

As many of you wonderful readers already know, I lived and served at a homeless shelter just outside of Chicago this summer. Returning to campus after this experience has been interesting, to say the least. In many ways, it's a little disheartening. I find myself longing for the people I served and the friends I made.

These homeless people I encountered are constantly stereotyped as the dregs of society. Many of them feel undeniably worthless on a daily basis, as if they have nothing to offer the world. I'll never forget how shocked they were to hear that I actually care about their situation and I actually want to not only help them in their struggles, but struggle alongside them.

For some reason or another, I experienced a certain desire to enter their battles with them; I soon grew weary of watching them fight alone. I wanted to help them fight the forces that kept them rooted in their poverty: their addictions, their mental and physical illnesses, their lack of familial su…

In Awe

It's one of those nights when I'm just in awe of Jesus. It's hard to remain patient when nothing seems to be going my way, but that's why I'm in awe of Him - because His way is so much better than mine.

This semester is a great period of discernment in my life. I'm a sophomore now. It's already time to start thinking about plans for next summer: do I apply for an internship or do I participate in the international version of the amazing service experience I had this summer (in other words, should I be practical or should I do what I actually want to do)? It's time to think more about my major and possible minors. What do I even want to do with my life?! On top of that, it's time to discern where I want to study abroad junior year, which semester, and what classes I want to take. On a more personal note, this semester is a time of discerning what kind of young woman I want to become and how I want to portray myself to others. With what kind of friend…

The Letter, Part Two

My Child,

There's nothing that pains me more than the thought of you doubting your worth. I have carefully crafted you into the person I want you to be, yet often you wonder if that person will ever be "enough."

If only you saw yourself the way I see you now - and not just now, but every single moment of your existence. Every moment, I have showered you with My grace, and I have continually viewed you as nothing less than beautiful. Sometimes I am overwhelmed with how beautiful and how wonderful you truly are. Yet what's even more overwhelming is the fact that you don't see it.

Take a moment to focus all of your attention on these next three words: You are worthy. Trust Me, I know your thoughts before you even think them...and I know that right now, you disagree with Me. I search you, and I know you. I know when you sit and when you rise; I perceive your thoughts from afar (Psalm 139:1-2). Because I know you, I know you constantly deny your worth, and it pains Me…