So Much More Than the 5%

If I had a dollar for every time he's made fun of my faith, I swear I could pay for Notre Dame's tuition all by myself.

Since I first started to fall in love with Jesus, a close family member of mine has made it his life goal to criticize my beliefs. "Don't be such an idiot," he would say to me as a sixth grader. Or "Come on, Haley, you're WAY smarter than that. This Christianity (insert four letter swear word that rhymes with "sit" here) is just a bunch of mythology. It's all a fairytale." I'll never forget freshman year of high school when I was struggling with a personal issue, and this family member said, "Where's your imaginary friend in the sky now? He's not real. He can't help you. You're all alone."

Many times I found myself siding with him, doubting my faith. What if he's right? What if this is all a joke? What if I've been wasting my time all these years?

At the end of my life, if I find that this whole Jesus thing is just another fairytale to ease our fears about death, I'll obviously be distraught. But the possibility of Christianity being completely false does not keep me from believing. Even if at the end of this life I find that God is not real, I will not regret living my entire life for Him. I will not look at my faith-filled life as just a waste of time. Why? Because I am living the most fulfilling life possible. And how in the world can "the most fulfilling life possible" be considered a waste of time?

I cannot imagine a more beautiful life than a life with Jesus. And I know in my heart without a doubt that Jesus is real because whenever I serve Him, I am filled with the sweetest kind of joy and the best kind of satisfaction. So am I wasting my time? No, not at all. In fact, only when I am NOT living with Jesus...that's when I'm wasting my time.

Disclaimer: When I talk about living a life with Jesus, I do not mean ditching all your friends every day and praying for five hours by yourself instead. What I mean is waking up 10 minutes earlier than usual to read your Bible or say a prayer, going to Church on Sunday mornings, talking to Jesus about your day as you walk to class, or asking Him to help you love your classmate who is simply impossible to love. That's what it means to live with Jesus.

So to my family member who has made it his life goal to criticize my beliefs, I say the following words: Your life could be so much more. Tonight, I took a plane from Dallas to Chicago, and I was sitting in the last row possible of the plane, right near the engine. The engine was covering my whole window, so as we were flying into Chicago, I could only see about 5% of the bright city lights of Chi Town. Think of this life as an airplane. We're all flying to some final destination. If you are not living your life with Jesus, you are sitting at the very back of the plane, only seeing 5% of the beautiful view outside your window. You're missing the breathtaking view you could be witnessing if you were living with Jesus. You're missing all the beauty, all the joy, all the satisfaction. Your life could be so much more.

Jesus is my Satisfaction and my Fulfillment. How could the most fulfilling life possible be a waste of time? If you have never tried living your life with Jesus before, it's never too late to change seats on the airplane and start seeing more than the 5%.

Song of the week: "Live Like That" by Sidewalk Prophets

With Jesus, you see so much more than the 5%. Open your eyes and start living.

P.S. Shout out to Sarah Finke for catching all my typos.


  1. This. is. amazing.
    I look forward to your blog every Sunday. Even when I'm having the worst day possible, reading your blog makes me think of life in a whole new way. You're my biggest role model.
    Thank you.

    1. Thank you so so much. It is so awesome getting encouragement every once in a while. I love that I can help you think of life in a whole new way...Remember that there are a million ways of looking at a problem. Not every struggle is the end of the world. Struggles provide immense opportunity for physical, emotional, and spiritual growth. Keep your head up and keep pursuing His truth and goodness every day!

  2. Haley, I'm so proud of you. Keep living your faith courageously. Doubt is a realistic part of belief. It's not always easy, but "persevere to the end, and you will be saved."

  3. Live the truth and it will set you free

  4. What a beautiful reflection!!! Thank you so much for doing this!


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